The world stopped,
while gaining momentum,
stars crashed into the earth for me.
I saw so much more than black,
I saw stars of each color.
My awareness was amethyst
in an array of ways,
gorgeous, you could say.
I wish I saw myself this way.
Enamored by Aurora's
earthly nightlight,
I wonder if I could be her light.
Could I be capable of lighting
the room I walk in?
Could I be a purple glow
to catch your eye?
I'm moving on from deaf ears
and empty chair audiences.
The empty effort is no more.
I'm moving forward,
walking down easier avenues.
I will find the weight of my words,
the gravity of my achievements.
My hope is to change the heart of man,
to ease his aching soul.
As each man has the potential
to save our dying earth,
if we award them the occasion.
These are the abilities of humanity,
the powers we possess.
To speak until we lose our voices,
then find a listening ear.
It only takes two to change the world,
one to speak of invention,
and the other a hand in creation.
A decade passed,
my head was in the clouds,
fueled by hopes and dreams.
Today I'm dedicated
to setting lofty goals,
and achieving each one.
On occasion,
my head drifts back to those dreams
and I find myself living them.
Whether known, or unknown,
I have words in the world.
I'm committed,
despite any judgment,
I carry on,
I keep writing.
My dreams may not be
what I thought they would be.
I'm the stubborn girl
who has everything
she wanted out of life.
After getting everything I wanted,
I found more.
A bottomless well of inspiration,
a breath-taking sip of hope.
The water is clear,
will not muddy,
pure and ready to drink.
So help yourself to the well.
Dead friendship dreams remind me
of the troubles I left behind.
What a blessing to form new friendships.
Because the greatest of friends
will lift you up when you fall,
rather than drag you through the mud.
When getting caught up in memories,
don't forget the moment you're living in.
The past is dead and gone,
and there's nothing you can do to fix past mishaps.
Past opportunities- lost,
but the future will bring along new ones.
New people will come along,
some will be for you,
some will be against you.
You don't have to allow anyone
in your life who will bring you down.
Most empowering, love yourself first.
Tragedy- a stumble
with no ability to get back up.
No one's around to lend a hand,
I find my own arms
unable to pick you up.
Helpless, I can only hand
you the encouragement
to get up on your own.
It's heartbreaking how I wish
I could do something to help
you move the world.
There are times when you fall,
and no one can help you up.
The strength must come from within yourself.
The biggest tragedy is the limbo-state
you find yourself stuck in.
Questioning if you can feel normal once more.
Hang in there, it takes time, it will get better.
The only problem is, no one knows when,
but if you keep at it, it will be okay.
While I can't explain life and it's complexities.
I can only explain me, how it's a miracle I'm alive.
I don't know how to fix people,
I only know how to speak to them.
Be careful with your words
because you don't know
when your words could count the most.
A simple hello can make a person's morning.
At times, it's essential to tell someone,
"You're not hopeless, you're not a tragedy."
When Reality pricks at me,
it's a needle to gather the blood
modern medicine needs.
How much to keep me safe
from mental illness and myself?
Take everything
you need from me Reality.
Whatever it takes to bring me back
to a home I can remember.
Home isn't what it once was,
isn't safe,
isn't what I remembered.
Home has become a place
where my mind tricks me.
The loved side of me left,
and fear is what's left.
Reality left me frantic,
searching for answers
to questions which don't exist.
Responsibility became my undertaking,
the consequences are mine to take,
no matter what they are.
Reality is a pill to take,
to end the fear,
to make me remember who to hold dear.
Reality could try its worst,
but it couldn't break my heart,
my relationships.