Tuesday, October 23, 2018

I Died And

Everyone I use to know
greeted me with a smile.

As if I was walking through a hall of the elderly,
and the good who died too young.

To my right, my grandmother and her twin
grab my hand and welcome me
as if they were church greeters.

I hear the echoes of an old friend
who tapped me on my shoulder.

At seventeen,
she passed away in a car accident,
and it doesn’t seem to matter anymore.
It’s as if nothing ever happened,
time kept moving on.

She made me wonder if time
as we knew it on earth,
was a feather and a rock in a vacuum.
They both fall at the same rate,
it’s a matter of which gets dropped first.

I took a step back,
bumped into my grandfather,
and an uncle I was unable to meet in life.
They seemed to know me better
than I knew myself.

My uncle addressed all the time spent reading
this book he owned, called Happiness.

He loved how I paid special attention
to the highlights and notes in the margins,
trying to get to know who he use to be.

A great aunt and uncle of mine stole me away
from my conversation.

 My great uncle said,
"Thanks for the eulogy,
 I know you didn't mean to write it,
but I'm happy it kick started your career."

 I laughed as my great aunt
expressed how it comforted her,
even if it was full of typos.

My attention turned to man standing alone,
I walk toward him, shake his hand.

Sad eyes look toward me.

Saying how sorry he was for
leaping in the bucket prior to my birth.
Talking time, and how he wished he lived longer.

I let him know he has all the time he needs.

He reminded me of a line I wrote years ago,
only in my dreams,
can a cemetery be a getaway.

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

The Story Isn't the Same For Everyone

I’m the one in the back of the book, a sudden recollection of a stranger.
Creeping into your subconscious, a memory, faint, fading away.

How could I forget you? The gun to my head, I heard myself say,
"What kind of luck is this? Guess I get to live to see another day."

As indifferent as I’ve been over the years, I think
I’ve forgiven you for that mess you made of my mind.

Yes, high school’s a horror story, but I’d rather see myself
forgotten than remembered as your antagonist.

We were friends, or so we thought ourselves to be.

Because we both know you lied that time you said
you’d make sure your friends were safe. You were careless
with us, didn't think of the damage your actions would cause.

All you wanted, was for everyone to see your rage,
and I’m guilty of listening without an ear of seriousness.

Luck is a convenience that helped me keep my life that evening.
Your so called solution, was ending the world,
the saddest part is, all you did was end yourself.