Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Empty Words and Performance Nerves

So, you call me selfish?

Well, I've got news for you,
you're not exactly selfless.

I won't let the smoke come before me,
this self serving habit that destroys you
and everyone around you.

Well, I've got news for you,
your words are empty when
you take toxicity over family
and have the nerve to call me selfish.

Tough love, I'm just selfish enough
to follow through, tough cookies,
but I'm not watching you circle the drain.

You're welcome in my life,
but the smoke you blow is not.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Done and Over

I lost a piece of me in history,
dropped it along the way,
but dropped it on purpose.

Now that I'm on my own,
there's no one here to stop me
from being who I am.

I'm not alone,
it doesn't matter
who's opposed because,
I,
am for me!

There are,
and always will be,
those in my life
who will try to convince me,
that I'm the worlds worst
kind of person.

I dropped the piece of me
that ever bought in to that.

My self-worth was lost
because of that piece.

Although I will never be,
I'm one step closer to complete
because when that piece was lost,
some self-esteem was found.

Thursday, October 8, 2015

Focus

For all the expectations made and obtained
there's a snag in the tight rope line
of reaching your resting place.

An already thin line
is even more daunting to step
when your eyes drift to dream
of where you'd rather be.

Getting to that dream is
essentially the same
as falling to your demise.

Dreaming is dangerous,
it'll send you plummeting
back down to earth,
but also leave you gathering the rest
of your splattered self off the ground.