When I start
to realize how much of a nothing I really am,
I find it
fitting to forget anyone
who's ever
made me feel that way about myself.
However daunting
that may be,
it means I must also forget myself.
It's far too easy to scorn myself,
It's far too easy to scorn myself,
despite how
insignificant or significant
the deeds I
do may be.
It's far too
unfair
to be the
biggest constant failure
to no one
but myself.
I'm a
sinking ship self esteem mentality
which is
incredibly difficult to crack,
so I ask myself,
"Where has any of this ever gotten me?"
I still let these feelings walk all over me every single day,
I let my
entire life sail right by me after all these years
and just lived
with the frustration of never being enough.
So, how do they affect me?
In every single way.
They rob me of my voice
So, how do they affect me?
In every single way.
They rob me of my voice
often
leaving me quiet
in a room
full of conversation.
They take
over and leave me exhausted,
fighting just to feel better.
They make me
shy in situations
where I
really need to speak up
and cause me
to close my mouth
when I have the opportunity to open up.
They make me
the least important person to ever exist.
The worst part of living in my ship wrecked mind
The worst part of living in my ship wrecked mind
is that I
always automatically assume
that everyone feels the same way about myself as I do.
