I painted several blue stars
while you were gone
And for some reason
I still love the shade of blue
I plastered on the walls
but when I finished
my mind was too far gone
to realize I created a masterpiece
I cleaned up my world
and scrubbed it until the finish
came off the hardwood floors
then I'd horde again
to fill the empty space
and me scared, shaking
suffering for the first time
from the anxiety flu
partially because I was afraid to lose you
